some  of this some of that the advice is deafening. I want someone to live inside my head. I don't think people have quite gotten the grasp there's two of me at the same time. NO NO NO I don't use this stupid mother fucking bullshit as an excuse I would rather kill myself then to keep doing this two things every fucking day. The frantic sobbing EVERY day really? you like that? really? you really think I "ME?" this "ME"? this person who has ran her life her whole fucking life with this shit and could manage it likes this. Mrs. Balls herself this way??? really???? you people think I like this???? I am using this as an excuse and some mornings I CAN NOT get out of my bed I wake up yeah WAKE UP crying YOU tell me why I would love to here YOUR theories on this. Then in 20 minutes I'm in a good mood then in an hour I'm agitated then within 2 hours I'm so tired I want to cry and dissolve and die. SO fuck all of you and my children, just get a teeny little job, get out, just stop, you're in control....this swirling, the noise, the static, the eeeeeeeekkkkkkk. I practically ive with an ipod in my head so I don't have to hear shit. Just music